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Eerwin Berner
9:47 PM on August 1, 2018
I am in total awe of the family bonds which all of you never allowed to be broken. Incredible unconditional love for each other and amazing strength of character and commitment has seen you through what was the most trying time of your lives. Your family is one in a billion.There will be a place in heaven already reserved for all of you.
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Michele Peters
12:26 AM on July 2, 2018
Hello Devon, I happy to hear and see that your doing so well. Miss you. Please say hello to your mom, dad and your sisters. Take care Devon❤❤
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Hayley
12:19 PM on November 11, 2016
Today marks 12 years since this journey began - I spent time reading through his journal entries and the guestbook and cried the whole way through, thinking about how strong you all are and how grateful I am to have you guys as my second family and Devon as my best friend and so much more. He has taught me so much, and you all inspire me every day with your strength, determination, and resilience. While today comes with so much emotion, it is also a day filled with gratitude as I think about all of the wonderful memories I have with Devon and everything that has happened on this crazy journey! The word grateful truly does not do justice.
For those of you who visit this website, Devon is doing amazing - if anyone wants an update on him or would like to visit him, if you contact me I can get you in touch with his family. My email address is [email protected] . T, I hope you read this and email me! Thank you to everyone for your continued love and support for Devon and his family.
For those of you who visit this website, Devon is doing amazing - if anyone wants an update on him or would like to visit him, if you contact me I can get you in touch with his family. My email address is [email protected] . T, I hope you read this and email me! Thank you to everyone for your continued love and support for Devon and his family.
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T
11:14 AM on August 7, 2016
I think of you often, even after all these years that hasn't changed. I remember when I heard the news & the heaviness I felt for you and your family. You all were always so good to me, so welcoming. I truly wish I could've done something to make things different for you and for them.
I dreamt of you last night. In it I approached your house as I did many times before, but this time was different. I couldn't bring myself to knock. I just stared, fighting off the guilt. Fighting off feeling as if I didn't come soon enough. Your Dad came out to greet me extremely welcoming and gracious. We spent some time in the drive way discussing your journey. During the conversation I was relieved to find out you were doing much better, and are back home with your family. It was then that I heard your voice from inside the house, and shortly after you had joined us in the drive. As you approached, you were still the same smiling joyous kid I remember.
Extremely excited to see you I shout "omg hey Dev!" & throw my arms around you. You hug me but then take a step back with an awkward look. It was as if you had no idea who I was. The dream flashes to our preteen selves sitting on your front lawn, playing with your extremely fat cat. Its as if nothing bad had happened, but I still knew. It's then that I got to tell you everything I ever wanted to say to you. You were my first crush, my first kiss and I've always wanted you to be happy. You brought so much joy into my life without even trying. I've carried so much guilt all these years for bringing marijuana into your life. We loved it way too much for as young as we were. I feel as though I contributed to your situation.
I woke up. Sitting up at 6a.m. trying to make sense of my dream, I did what anyone would do and started to google you, yet again. I've done this many times, with zero results. I come up with the same Devon Burns results I always have, I'm left feeling defeated and confused about everything. I decided to just relive the simpler times, and I fly my google earth to all our favourite spots & reminisce. It isn't long before I find me dragging my viewer down your road and find myself staring at your house just as I did in my dream. I click on your house and it revealed your address. Through that I was able to google the address and come to the realization, I've been spelling your last name wrong for 15+ years.
I spent the last few hours, going through your journey, reading many blogs and articles. My heart aches for everything you had to go through but I feel a slight bit of relief knowing that you're doing better, getting better. I am so proud of all your progress and strength!!
The latest update I was able to find is a few years old. I pray you see this, & I pray that you're continuing to progress.
I love you Dev.
T
I dreamt of you last night. In it I approached your house as I did many times before, but this time was different. I couldn't bring myself to knock. I just stared, fighting off the guilt. Fighting off feeling as if I didn't come soon enough. Your Dad came out to greet me extremely welcoming and gracious. We spent some time in the drive way discussing your journey. During the conversation I was relieved to find out you were doing much better, and are back home with your family. It was then that I heard your voice from inside the house, and shortly after you had joined us in the drive. As you approached, you were still the same smiling joyous kid I remember.
Extremely excited to see you I shout "omg hey Dev!" & throw my arms around you. You hug me but then take a step back with an awkward look. It was as if you had no idea who I was. The dream flashes to our preteen selves sitting on your front lawn, playing with your extremely fat cat. Its as if nothing bad had happened, but I still knew. It's then that I got to tell you everything I ever wanted to say to you. You were my first crush, my first kiss and I've always wanted you to be happy. You brought so much joy into my life without even trying. I've carried so much guilt all these years for bringing marijuana into your life. We loved it way too much for as young as we were. I feel as though I contributed to your situation.
I woke up. Sitting up at 6a.m. trying to make sense of my dream, I did what anyone would do and started to google you, yet again. I've done this many times, with zero results. I come up with the same Devon Burns results I always have, I'm left feeling defeated and confused about everything. I decided to just relive the simpler times, and I fly my google earth to all our favourite spots & reminisce. It isn't long before I find me dragging my viewer down your road and find myself staring at your house just as I did in my dream. I click on your house and it revealed your address. Through that I was able to google the address and come to the realization, I've been spelling your last name wrong for 15+ years.
I spent the last few hours, going through your journey, reading many blogs and articles. My heart aches for everything you had to go through but I feel a slight bit of relief knowing that you're doing better, getting better. I am so proud of all your progress and strength!!
The latest update I was able to find is a few years old. I pray you see this, & I pray that you're continuing to progress.
I love you Dev.
T
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Kathy
8:26 PM on November 9, 2011
On November 11th, I try to think of that cute little blonde haired blue eyed boy, who yelled swear words across the bay at the new neighbors. I think of Devon today and hope he is doing well. After being on this site, I can see that he has such a strong supportive family and my heart goes out to you all....Take Care.
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Kourtney
12:09 AM on August 10, 2011
Hey Dev! I loved being your counsellor this last week at CES! You have stolen my heart and I had way too much fun with you! I'm so glad that you were chosen to be in my cabin and I hope you had as much fun as I did. It is safe to say I don't think I have ever participated in bathroom wrestling until I met you. Thanks for being patient with us and for becoming a great friend of mine! I have some sweet pictures of you from camp and don't hesitate to ask for them! You have made a huge impact on my life. I will be following your progress and praying for you! Thanks for beating me up, dancing with me, never failing to make me smile, for being my friend and changing my life! I love you D-vo, D Birns, Dev and I can't wait to see you next year at camp!
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Chelsey
7:10 PM on August 8, 2011
Hey Dev! thanks fore the awesome week at camp even though i wasnt your counsellor. you definately made this week amazing and stole my heart. i love you so much its crazy, i think you left the bigest impact on all us counsellors and im sure i speak for all of us when i say we love you and cant wait to see you next year, youve changed our lives forever buddy. see you soon!
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Hayley
1:08 AM on June 19, 2011
Hey Dev, thinking about you lots tonight! Congratulations on graduating high school this week, I am so very proud of you! Thank you for all you have taught & shown me, and for always being there to put a smile on my face. I wouldn't be who I am today if it weren't for you and your amazing family. Love you xo
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Jodi (big Sis)
4:15 PM on June 2, 2011
Just checking in Dev. I think I went through almost all the entries and its very overwhelming to see all the posts on here. You have had a big impact on so many people Its amazing-you are amazing! I love you. Thinking about you all the time!! 
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Tamara Lavis
10:39 PM on February 14, 2011
such a beautiful boy/young man. Through thick and thin I know your family loves you
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Ronnie
10:28 AM on January 28, 2011
Bonnie Rayner: if you find yourself back at this guest book please send me an email at [email protected] i would love to talk with you. As I read your entry my heart ached and tears came to my eyes, I could feel your anguish as it is so familiar. Hang on tight to your hope and faith. I hope we can talk soon. God bless. Ronnie
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bonnie rayner
8:28 PM on January 20, 2011
Hi you dont know me but your story has giving me hope right now as i am going through the same thing with my son .He is 27 years old .He is now in the icu in calgary .I have been praying for my son every waking minute and god has aswered my prayers as my son has come out of his coma and is showing some signs of brain activity.I know he has a long road ahead of him but hearing your story of the journey of your son devon has giving me hope.I am so glad to hear your son has came so far and is happy.God bless you and your family. Bonnie
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Mom
7:10 PM on January 7, 2011
Happy birthday Devon! You have become such an awesome young man and we are very proud of you. We thank Jesus for you each and every day.
Love Mom
xox
Love Mom
xox
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Hayley
12:02 PM on November 11, 2010
6 years of some amazing progress today... I know I tell you this all the time, and that's not gonna stop anytime soon 
I am proud of you!!
I am proud of you!!
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bEEFREE
11:48 PM on April 15, 2010
WOW! Its gonna be just 5 years on July 7th! And i say "just" because I remember the others that attended meetings...GREAT meetings...with 20 years plus!! I'm still new at recovery...meetings or not...always gonna be new!! I have relationships with the people who had to against their will...HAD (AND I MEAN HAD!!) to let me go before I not only destroyed ME-BUT DESTROYED...THEM!!
I, TODAY HAVE A FAMILY!! JUST SHY OF 5 YEARS!! I NOT ONLY LOVE THEM BUT MYSELF!! MY HIGHER POWER GETS ME THRU IT ALL & WITH THAT GREAT MEETING OR NOT STILL I STILL DO IT ONE DAY AT A TIME ALWAYS WILL!!
ALMOST 5 YEARS WITH HEP C TO REMIND ME OF MY CARELESSNESS AND DISREGARD OF MYSELF. CARING NOW. HAVE A HELL OF A GREAT JOB TODAY...JUST SHY OF 5 YEARS OLD!! FAMILY, FRIENDS...ETC...ETC...
YOU AS WELL CAN FIND A REAL HAPPY ENDING...THERE IS LIFE AFTER METH!!
I, TODAY HAVE A FAMILY!! JUST SHY OF 5 YEARS!! I NOT ONLY LOVE THEM BUT MYSELF!! MY HIGHER POWER GETS ME THRU IT ALL & WITH THAT GREAT MEETING OR NOT STILL I STILL DO IT ONE DAY AT A TIME ALWAYS WILL!!
ALMOST 5 YEARS WITH HEP C TO REMIND ME OF MY CARELESSNESS AND DISREGARD OF MYSELF. CARING NOW. HAVE A HELL OF A GREAT JOB TODAY...JUST SHY OF 5 YEARS OLD!! FAMILY, FRIENDS...ETC...ETC...
YOU AS WELL CAN FIND A REAL HAPPY ENDING...THERE IS LIFE AFTER METH!!
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Marilyn McEwen
7:47 PM on November 11, 2009
I met you yesterday in the H1N1 lineup at Robert Usher School. Thank you for your candor and honesty about Devon's experience. I will never forget you, and am so grateful to have met you. Your son and you both are an inspiration. Good luck, and my prayers are with you.
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Hayley
1:48 PM on November 11, 2009
Thinking of all of you today. Devon, I can't believe how much you have progressed in the past year, let alone 5 years. I'm so proud of you. Love you all
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Hayley
12:19 AM on May 21, 2009
So right now, you and your amazing family are pretty much the only ones in the world who can ALWAYS make me smile... and I appreciate it so much
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Carrie, Ray and Shelby
3:17 PM on April 17, 2009
Hi DEV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just stopped in to check things out. Mom says you are doing awesome and moving more forward every day.....OF COURSE!!!! You are just an amazing guy and we love you so much. I know we don't get to see you as often as we'd like but you guys are all in our thoughts. I just want you to know just how amazing I think you are and that your strength and persevereance really inspires me. I send my love to you, Auntie Ronnie, Uncle Doug and all the girls and familes. We miss you all and hope we can come see you sometime soon. Until then.....all our love and hugs and wishes that you continue to learn more and move forward in your amazing recovery. Love you bunches and miss you more!!!!!
Love Carrie, Ray and Shelby
xoxox
Love Carrie, Ray and Shelby
xoxox
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Jodi Tourscher
8:24 PM on March 25, 2009
What a wonderful web site. This site will help a lot of people going through the same trauma. I just started working with Roni and find her to be positive, generous, caring and such a Wonderful person. My heart goes out to her and the family. There are so many turns in life and my turn led me to this wonderful person. Anything you need Roni. never be afraid to ask. God bless you and your family.
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Garett
4:01 AM on March 20, 2009
its been a while since i talked to you wow its been a few years you are always still on the back of my mind bro when clouds are dark and its cold the only thing you can do is keep your head up tell me where you are i would like to come visit you bros forever.
Garett
Garett
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Hayley
4:01 PM on March 10, 2009
Whats up buddy! I've been gone for almost three weeks, and I'm missing you like crazy! 
But I hear that you're doing good, which is awesome When I get home you have to show me these noises you're making, I can't wait for you to get your I Gaze, and then to start talking again! As always, I'm so proud of you for all the progress you're making, and I can't wait to see you again. Tell your mom to hurry up and update the website!!!!! 
Hayley
But I hear that you're doing good, which is awesome When I get home you have to show me these noises you're making, I can't wait for you to get your I Gaze, and then to start talking again! As always, I'm so proud of you for all the progress you're making, and I can't wait to see you again. Tell your mom to hurry up and update the website!!!!!
Hayley
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Jennifer Gabrysh
5:07 PM on February 3, 2009
Hi Devon, This is Jen. Your care giver, Brenda, also looks after me too. I had an accident a couple of years ago, and am in a wheelchair now. It looks like you are doing really well. Keep it up.
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Ur sister!
9:21 PM on December 7, 2008
Hey brutha!
Just wanted to say that I miss you, and miss seeing your beautiful smile. I will see you soon tho.
Love you, love you, love you!
Jamie
P.S. Jesse says Hey Bro
Just wanted to say that I miss you, and miss seeing your beautiful smile. I will see you soon tho.
Love you, love you, love you!
Jamie
P.S. Jesse says Hey Bro
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Lisa S
12:12 AM on November 21, 2008
Hey Devon!! How's it going? Looks like youre keeping up your strength and that's great. Saw you at my work few times^_^anyways keep up the strength dude, doing great!!^_^
-Simpson
-Simpson
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Hayley
10:00 PM on November 10, 2008
I am so thankful, and so lucky to have you and your family in my life. I love spending my days with you as you can always make me smile and laugh, and I wouldn't trade the crazy times we've had together for anything in the world. Even on the worst days seeing your smile, your laugh, you doing the weirdest things on your mat, and getting a hug from you, they're all things that can make all of the bad in the world disappear, even if it's just for a split second. All I can say is I don't know what I would do without you. Not a day goes by where I don't think of you and look at your amazing school pictures and thank God that you're still here to make my days so much brighter. You and your family are truly a gift, and I know the day I met you all was the day I was blessed. I love you all, thank you for everything, from the bottom of my heart.
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Jack Spink
11:24 PM on November 9, 2008
Hi Devon, I don't know if you remember me or not, but I worked with you on the unit in Ponoka when you were here! I just wanted to say "Hello", and see how things are going for ya. Hard to believe how long you've been gone!
Hope all is well with you and your parents and sisters.
Take care..........Jack S. BIRP - Ponoka
Hope all is well with you and your parents and sisters.
Take care..........Jack S. BIRP - Ponoka
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judi archibald
2:12 AM on October 9, 2008
what a wonderful site and I would like to link to it or copy the meth poem on my son's site www.tylerarchibald.com on his "about life page" which is really a page about what drugs have done to our life. I cried reading your journals, because my son also turned 16 in a hospital room. But I cried even harder to read that by God's Grace your son did not lose all of his brain cells and has body control, can swallow and is now using his arms and legs. These things are so taken for granted and unfortunately my son also 15 when he hung himself, is now 20 and only can control his eyes and make noises. but he's definately "in there" and can now smile at us when we act silly. God can always turn something bad into something good and your sons strength and your goal to save others I know has effected many people. My prayers are with his continued recovery.
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Evan Johnston
6:58 PM on September 22, 2008
Heyy, auntie Ronnie & uncle Doug! Great site, its still sad but he's doing so good, and I'm super happy for you guys Just wanted to say that.. I'll talk to you later!! love yah, Evan.
Just wanted to say that.. I'll talk to you later!! love yah, Evan.
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kehiew fox
4:16 PM on September 18, 2008
hey devon !!! wow its been a long time since i've talked to you !! you were friends with my borther okimaw fox! lol i remember when i went to ford and you were there i was liked you ! LOL you were such a good guy and i hope your doing awesome cause by reading your journal and looking at your pictures it looks like you are & im so happy and proud of you !!!! good job bud! i hope to see you again sometime soon! im older now and in grade 12 and im so amazed by all your effort to grow stronger ! cause you are so strong& iknwo your here for a reason!!
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sam
10:37 PM on August 21, 2008
hey, this girl i know is advertising this website... when i heard the name devon, i kinda had this weird feeling, i knew what it was about. I read the stories of what happened, and the feeling got stronger, i knew i had defintiyl heard this before. then i was reading guestbook entries, and i noticed you guys sold chocolates as a fundraiser. And it came to me. I definitly was involved with selling those chocolates a couple years ago out in lumsden, and it was just really cool to have participated in this,even if it was a while back, now that im a bit older i understand more. And i cant help but tear up when i read those stories. I see pictures on facebook and i smile. IThis stories has really inspired me recently. Its really amazing. really.
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Hayley
2:42 AM on August 16, 2008
D-von! I hope that you're having an awesome time at camp, I'm missing you already! I'm listening to Ripples for probably the thousandth time, and every single time I listen to it, I end up in tears. Seeing you is the highlight of my week, and I absolutely love being able to see you so much. Your smile, your laugh, your sense of humour, it's all I have to think about to make me happy, and I couldn't think of anything better to see or hear. Even though you've kicked my ass a few times, I still love you to death buddy I know that you know your story has really inspired people, and I hope that you know that you've changed and saved some lives too, including mine. Keep on working hard Dev, the progress you've made is absolutely amazing, and everyone is beyond proud of you. When you get back we'll sneak out at night and steal some more gnomes! Hopefuly your parents are protecting gnomey while you're gone. h34r: I love you!
I know that you know your story has really inspired people, and I hope that you know that you've changed and saved some lives too, including mine. Keep on working hard Dev, the progress you've made is absolutely amazing, and everyone is beyond proud of you. When you get back we'll sneak out at night and steal some more gnomes! Hopefuly your parents are protecting gnomey while you're gone. h34r: I love you!
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Norma Knuth
9:07 PM on August 14, 2008
How lucky you are Devon, to have such a wonderful, close knit family. It seems that you're making wonderful progress. I know volunteer for a charity called Hopes' Home. We are about to open up a respite centre for medically fragile children. Too bad that you're too old now for our program. Your mom and dad, I sure realize how necessary respite time is. Say Hi to your family, especially Jodi - I wish her well.
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Kayla Daly
3:38 PM on August 13, 2008
Devon,
I have heard of the story of what happened to you a while ago, but never heard your name .. just the story. Today I came across a Facebook page with pictures of you and I had to ask someone what happened. They told me the story and showed me this page, I read "Devon's Journal" and it made me bring a tear to my eye. I am so happy you survived this and it was a sign from God your still supposed to be here. You look like you have such a wonderful personality and your so darn cute! I'm so sorry this had to happen to you, but your the reason we believe in miracles. You are truly a miracle and I'm so happy reading that your getting better, way better.
My prayers and thoughts are always with you.
I have heard of the story of what happened to you a while ago, but never heard your name .. just the story. Today I came across a Facebook page with pictures of you and I had to ask someone what happened. They told me the story and showed me this page, I read "Devon's Journal" and it made me bring a tear to my eye. I am so happy you survived this and it was a sign from God your still supposed to be here. You look like you have such a wonderful personality and your so darn cute! I'm so sorry this had to happen to you, but your the reason we believe in miracles. You are truly a miracle and I'm so happy reading that your getting better, way better.
My prayers and thoughts are always with you.
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ken dyck
6:50 PM on August 8, 2008
sup devon??? good to see you're doing good. I like reading about your improvements. Well take it easy buddy.
peace, ken.
peace, ken.
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Ashley Randall:)
8:17 PM on July 21, 2008
wow dev.. seems like you've been home from ponoka forever i know it rocks for everyone else that you are home but it really sucks for me i miss you so much. i miss just having the free time to just sit and imagine.. you are a very soothing person devon! and i really miss being in your presence i am going to have to plan more trips back to regina so we can hang were going to be friends forever.! i hope all is well with you. all is well here too. keep in touch!
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Christeena
2:49 AM on June 21, 2008
Hello there Devon! What a terrific day! Do you know that today was offiically the 1st day of summer? It looks like it's going to be a great one for you. WOW! You are doing awesome! You are so lucky to have your Mom and Dad, as I am sure they consider themselves very fortunate to have you. You have excelled and are breaking all the "rules". WAY TO GO DEV! Think of you often and may see you this summer. Will be in touch. Love you lots. Love Christeena, Ken, Breanne & Susie.
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Chelsea
5:05 PM on June 20, 2008
Hey Devon,
I'm not sure if you'll remember me but I was your senior counsellor at Camp Easter Seal last year (2007). I just wanted to send you a message saying hello and that I have been thinking about you. I hope that you will be returning to camp in a few weeks and that all has been good for you this year.
Cheers,
Chelsea
I'm not sure if you'll remember me but I was your senior counsellor at Camp Easter Seal last year (2007). I just wanted to send you a message saying hello and that I have been thinking about you. I hope that you will be returning to camp in a few weeks and that all has been good for you this year.
Cheers,
Chelsea
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Carrie and Shelby
3:10 AM on June 19, 2008
Hey Dev!!!! Just took a look at what you're up to and it looks like a WHOLE LOT!!! Way to go buddy!! I loved the video of you on your bike. You got some cool new wheels there dude! We've been doing great and sure are hoping to take a trip down there sometime soon, Shelby really wants to come during the summer so we'll see. We would love to stop in and see you and everyone. You are amazing Dev and you continue to be an inspiration to me and to Shelby and even more than we know I'm siure. Hello to all the family and know that we're thinking of you and send our love to you all. Take care for now.
Love Carrie, Ray and Shelby
Love Carrie, Ray and Shelby
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Lisa
1:12 AM on June 2, 2008
Hey devon! Looks like you're still doing awesome, and progressing congrats! I've been seeing you and others coming into zellers lots! And you always look so happy woo! Anyways keep up the good work and you're doing so good!Yay!
-Lisa S
-Lisa S
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Hayley
1:25 PM on May 25, 2008
man I really hope I get to come work with you at camp this summer, Devon; that would be so sweet! we'll wreak some havoc there, hahahaha Ronnie and Doug, thank you for all of the possibilities you've given me, and thank you for making me feel like a member of your family you're all more than amazing. also thank you so much for everything you wrote about me on my camp reference form, it brought tears to my eyes as I was reading it. you've all inspired me in so many different ways and you continue to every single day.
Ronnie and Doug, thank you for all of the possibilities you've given me, and thank you for making me feel like a member of your family you're all more than amazing. also thank you so much for everything you wrote about me on my camp reference form, it brought tears to my eyes as I was reading it. you've all inspired me in so many different ways and you continue to every single day.
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Desirae
3:31 PM on May 15, 2008
Hey Dev....Just thought i would say hey and see you are doing....I see your doing well....goood to see....tell jodi Des says hey!!We'll all have together one night have catch up on things. anywho...take care bud....always thinking of you!
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Jodi (Big Sis)
6:45 PM on May 13, 2008
Hey Buuuddyy!!
Again, last time i signed this was in december... again lots has happened since then. I moved out of my apartment and moved in with Jerrod and the kids and of course Jewel. things have been hectic but good. im soo glad you are home, i have missed you soooo much! Im glad to see you are doing well. I'm still at Canadalife and i recently bought my MuStAnG!! Heehee we gotta go for a ride brotha. Anway, just wanted to let you know whats been goin on with me and my life as I hear/read about yours all the time. I love you Devon and keep doing what you're doing, you are amazing!!!
Again, last time i signed this was in december... again lots has happened since then. I moved out of my apartment and moved in with Jerrod and the kids and of course Jewel. things have been hectic but good. im soo glad you are home, i have missed you soooo much! Im glad to see you are doing well. I'm still at Canadalife and i recently bought my MuStAnG!! Heehee we gotta go for a ride brotha. Anway, just wanted to let you know whats been goin on with me and my life as I hear/read about yours all the time. I love you Devon and keep doing what you're doing, you are amazing!!!
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